Didn't Really Feel Great.

For once, in my life time during NTU, i quite being involved in Cultural Night 2010. And it did came out as a revelation to me. Probably because i felt that i am always needed to be there to secure the performances.
It wasnt a really great feeling to miss it, but it ain't neccesarily a bad feeling not to be there for the first time. And yes, this time, it really felt like... it was nothing much to me already. Probably because of everything that has happened. I really feel this time round, there was no need for me to go influence the movement of the concert.

Tomorrow's Resonation, another of the music groups that i have painstakingly brought up from the starters. YAC, Resonation, Yin Sync, Cultural... the legacy carries on. These shows are really what brought me up as an executive producer that i am today. But yes, i can really feel that the lessons learnt were valuable enough for me to bring out the best in the future people that i am going to bring out of their shadows.

Yet, hahah. i am really laughing to myself when i say this, and i really mean it. Its the appreciation, or the lack of it. really. probably getting too used to NO appreciation really doesn't mean its OK getting none. Now, the fundamental things i look for appreciation are just that as long as they bring the best out of themselves in performance, i would've kinda secured my duties and be, probably happy.

And then i have cheated myself out of more than like .... let me count..... 7 performing arts chances? so that i can train others? There are sacrifices to make man. but then its up to the individual to decide when to come in and when to leave, and when u leave, dun ask for anything more. Thats practically, what i did today. and it wasnt easy, let me tell u that. cos u know when u look in their eyes, they hope. that u are present, so that u can inspire them in their songs to be better. And i know, i can do that. Yet, i removed myself, having a mini realisation that, probably i just need to have a break from everything for a good week, like how i have been enjoying today.

U know after saying all these, somehow u wanna carry on what u are doing, because u know, u have made a difference in more than 100 lives because of music. And that feels good, cos you always know that whatever you do, even though some of those 100 lives would never be able to appreciate, u still made a mammoth effort in bringing people together, strengthening the faith in themselves, via the best medium in the world. Music.

And yes, i Bring Music to Your Life.
I won't stop. and the best thing is, u know u can make miracles out of it.

3 more weeks, and i breathe easier. FYP, projects, presentations, reviews, field notes. haha last semester. thats the deal.