My Dreams?

Sometimes i do wonder back to square one, what my dreams really are. Looking at some of the facebook photos that my cousins have? Theyhave their very own events company and its doing really well, but my own seems to be faltering hard for my partners' inactivity. They seem to have lost faith, and i have seldom seen one of my partners. I think its time to move on and not to bother too much about the company, maybe even start one my own and rope in a few new guys that are more willing to contribute.

Sometimes i do feel that going to NIE really isn't a very big dream of mine, something that comes out of as just an interest rather than a passion. Either ways, i will serve that bond and secure a substantial amount to be able to see what else i can do from there.

Everyone has dreams. But am i looking out at the dreams i have and going after it? What exactly are my dreams? I know i have listed a few in the past, but was never able to narrow down, hence the hesitation and doubt setting in my mind, then no drive to push forth anymore. I guess, sometimes, that's the reason why alot of people hang on to sole proprietorship. In Growing up, Gary revealed to his brother Steven that he always has to stress about daily sales opening up a store for carpentry of furniture. A contractor that he is, his customer base can sometimes be unreliable. What i'm saying here is that there are definitely dangers starting out on my own, and maybe its because of these dangers that prevents me from doing it on my own, this cowardice feel. As a result, i did not choose the right mode of partners ready for the job, and really lost out on alot.

I need to have a clean slate. Clean up the mess, clear whatever is not supposed to be there, and really start afresh. I need some months to do so, but i know i will achieve it. I know i will. The problem is when, and how.

I'm trying to look forward, trying to get backto the books and to clear up, and i know it will take monster effort, yet i'm dragging myself back somehow. These are the challenges i'm facing, but i'm not backing down. I think in my sub-consciousness, there's this once-active Alvin telling me that hey, all is not lost and you can restart something even more fantastic with all these experiences i already have.
I have a good girlfriend, for once my mindset is set on that, and i don't plan to change it anymore.
Positivity and action breeds result, and thats what i am looking at. I won't give up. I need to work hard, for a better tomorrow. For once, these are the things:

- Dissolve the partnership at Evo
- Clear my stocks for stuffed toys and the chirashi posters
- Re-establish a business plan

Its for the betterment of tomorrow. I believe, so i must do.

Please, bless me with the strength to carry out the duties properly.
I wanna do better than any Yeo's have ever done in my family.