Freezing in the midst

Haha its been a cool cold week, with the temperatures constantly brought down by heavy rains. but this is really nice cos i feel ready for whatever is to come.

- I have confirmed my subjects in PE and English, and thats really cool
- I have also picked up the cert for my top 10% HPAP commendation, thats even more cool
- I am preparing for exams and after that, final sem!

somehow its all been really smooth.

But i guess my power will need to be picked up soon. if not the process will choke on its activities.
There's Jiujian's projects as well as Adventurers to consider.

Wa shiok

I think today is one of the better days for so many months that have arrived. I have two jobs to choose, at the same time, i have also received two big news:

- I passed my ppt, even more cementing my pursuit as a PE teacher. Song la!
- I got top 10% for my HPAP attachment, i mean even though the monetary benefits there is nothing, i feel that to me its a big achievement le. shiok la!

Singing. My passion

I haven't given up on it yet. And yes i'm only 25, and i'm actively looking for a friend that can really perform at shows with me. I really hope i can find him/her.
Cos i just can't stop singing. haaha.

Getting Better

I seem to be able to look for the momentum long gone. So let's see how long it comes. I cleared a bit of misunderstandings and is great to move on knowing things are going to be clear soon.
The second thing on my mind is to really hit on the road for certain items and i assure u everything is going to be fun-tastic.

Baby Boom

I noticed within a space time of 3 years, i've witnessed more than 20 of my friends married (all in the same exact age as i am) and all of them are experiencing the transition of being a father/mother. I wish them all the best.

I also realised that the malay community in my secondary school is particularly close together and that was also how i found out about the birth rates and together with some of my other friends, they have contributed to Singapore's baby population.

My buddy Kelly actually wed a few months ago and i really hope he's happy now, cos at the age of 25, it kinda spells abit of early rush for him. Also for my other friends who are always great lovers like Wilson, Boon Kiat, Alex, especially Alex whom i missed wedding due to something important that i have to do, and whom already had a baby boy to boast at the tail end of 25 years old. So there goes, everything changes, with a few of my friends already taking new roles in life, and i must give it to them to be able to support the existence of the newborns.

Looking at my relationship,its kinda going smooth now and if nothing goes wrong, i guess i've found the one i want. So let's really pray and hope nothing goes wrong. I'm looking forward to a new life ahead, and also with a fledging idealistic presence still lingering in my head, i would want to reach out to it and really ask myself what should i do in these days of existence as Alvin Yeo. I want to do something big, and i really want to make it.

So once i rest easy with studies, then i will aiming for something more important already. My goals. For once, hall life seems a bit too draggy and boring for me, and its really time for me to sit back and relax. I've virtually lived up to my name as the 'voice of hall 6'. so here we go. The next step for me it shall be.

Boy i love the opportunities that would be coming if there's any to secure.

My Dreams?

Sometimes i do wonder back to square one, what my dreams really are. Looking at some of the facebook photos that my cousins have? Theyhave their very own events company and its doing really well, but my own seems to be faltering hard for my partners' inactivity. They seem to have lost faith, and i have seldom seen one of my partners. I think its time to move on and not to bother too much about the company, maybe even start one my own and rope in a few new guys that are more willing to contribute.

Sometimes i do feel that going to NIE really isn't a very big dream of mine, something that comes out of as just an interest rather than a passion. Either ways, i will serve that bond and secure a substantial amount to be able to see what else i can do from there.

Everyone has dreams. But am i looking out at the dreams i have and going after it? What exactly are my dreams? I know i have listed a few in the past, but was never able to narrow down, hence the hesitation and doubt setting in my mind, then no drive to push forth anymore. I guess, sometimes, that's the reason why alot of people hang on to sole proprietorship. In Growing up, Gary revealed to his brother Steven that he always has to stress about daily sales opening up a store for carpentry of furniture. A contractor that he is, his customer base can sometimes be unreliable. What i'm saying here is that there are definitely dangers starting out on my own, and maybe its because of these dangers that prevents me from doing it on my own, this cowardice feel. As a result, i did not choose the right mode of partners ready for the job, and really lost out on alot.

I need to have a clean slate. Clean up the mess, clear whatever is not supposed to be there, and really start afresh. I need some months to do so, but i know i will achieve it. I know i will. The problem is when, and how.

I'm trying to look forward, trying to get backto the books and to clear up, and i know it will take monster effort, yet i'm dragging myself back somehow. These are the challenges i'm facing, but i'm not backing down. I think in my sub-consciousness, there's this once-active Alvin telling me that hey, all is not lost and you can restart something even more fantastic with all these experiences i already have.
I have a good girlfriend, for once my mindset is set on that, and i don't plan to change it anymore.
Positivity and action breeds result, and thats what i am looking at. I won't give up. I need to work hard, for a better tomorrow. For once, these are the things:

- Dissolve the partnership at Evo
- Clear my stocks for stuffed toys and the chirashi posters
- Re-establish a business plan

Its for the betterment of tomorrow. I believe, so i must do.

Please, bless me with the strength to carry out the duties properly.
I wanna do better than any Yeo's have ever done in my family.

Quiz in 12 hours.

Well, just as the title pointed out, i'm going to take my quiz soon. And this is going to be a challenge. I mean every 3 weeks one quiz, how mad is that? Have to cover 3 weeks of notes in 3 hours. Aiming to sleep at 2am tonight and wake up tomorrow to study more before going to tutorial.

Had a great dinner with the management side of Hexis and will be hoping that the actors and actresses are able to pull it off, and the sets and props are able to settle their stuffs fast.
Things in hall are definitely starting to improve and heat up, as u can see with all the hustle and bustle in hall.

I'm aiming to finish the following this week:
- HS 201 Presentation
- HA 205 Paper
- 2 weeks worth of FYP / then report to professor GB
- HS 223 - settle the group and my quiz.

I really hope that tomorrow would be a better day. My insomnia or biological clock miscount can change for the better tomorrow.

It begins today

Honestly, my notes and my projects are having dust on their surfaces because i haven't been touching them much before the mid-term break. The pace will change now since i really need to be scoring well for the exams this semester. Except for the wretched module long gone, now its to focus on the rest that i really need to be concerned about.

Also, the finance part has been draining and i need to look for quick alternative plans to water the bank accounts so that i can carry on my daily activity.

This blog is to record down the most minute to the challenging issues that i would be facing during this whole period of time till the end of my exams, and beyond that. For now, its quite interesting to go thru a period of lull where u are not sure of your motivations in life, your goals and whether u are reaching it, and whether u really want your goal to come true, those are just some of the things that float around in my mind.

Hexis canvassing was exceptionally well, as there are only 13 mooncakes left to sell. So kudos to the younger ones. The other thing that i felt was there was one thing that went right this semester, and that is my room is still cool and clean. hah. Then the next few things i wanna achieve are mundane, but more so to keep my concentration there as well as make sure that i do my repetitions in exercise correct and accurate so that i don't waste my time and my body won't just fade away.

Exams and assignments are hounding, and there's always the struggle to keep myself going in all these. After all, i'm left with only one semester left after this. Lets make it a good one!

This week would be the mega-week for catch backs. From academics to business, i hope to make a one-up against the odds this time.



I need to run out for tomorrow.